never ends .... when is this going to end ...

okie great let be frank i cannot stand this nonsense about life . setting my priorities .

1. study hard and must complete my history of mgt thought first draft by the 5th of feb okie .
2. cure my sickness ... must be healthy enough to study
3. stop playing okie ... must restraints .
4. start my project assignments - ER and MR ....
5. start writing my ER essay
6. mug for the pm tests on cominc february
Girl WAKE UP !!!PLSSS ...



lovereis

chinese new year

Day 1
chinese new year had been blooming for me , i visit my maternal side grandma and relatives .... din really seen much coming cos mostly oversea or anything ... every years ... people are lesser ... and mean my ang pao shrinking ... sad ar ...that was the end of day 1 . Just saw a few aunts and cousins , not to mention my grandma's disappointment ?

she said " u din bring boyfriend this year ".

me : nope, dun have ....

n to continue this topic my aunts and cousins would gathers around to ask ... omg ... when are u going to stop this endless questioning and auntie said nowsaday teenager's mindset keep changing .....to end this, i just keep eating haha. Meet afew of my cousins , on my batch are all male .... from 1982-1986 ..... and i am the only girl , glad to see ah wen da ge , boyboy , weiwen and ah nee sis and she is mightly successful in her career at 30 a senior manager .... whoo-op but not married yet , got a pretty small small face .... cousin u must work harder !!!! hopefully next year she can go down the aisle .

Day 2

went to karen's and my external family with adrian , he was super duper late for 15mins i guess .... luckily me in a good mood .... and whoop went to aunt's house and eat lunch ... then see my brothers and sisters ... oh right ah mei just give birth to a boy call yu qian , very very cute with the chubby pinky cheek .... and this boy give her 21 hours of torture ...omg guess his dad huang xi piao must be a darn good hubby , keep carrying the baby .

The lunch was overall delicious and nice ..... i miss those times with aunt and karen and the rest ... lest of all meet yan and etc ... omg ... ah zai got a girlfren , probably will married by this year... february ROM:>all the best zai !!!

Then the show of lion dance finally come at 3pm , when all were busy gambling and the younder cousins keep tagging my feet ... omg ... quan quan !!!! n i got to c my two di di ... eyan and phua phua ..... miss them a big deal ... eyan went ns and his hand become so so rough ... and for phua ... still dare to go n pierce..dunno what he thinking , waiting for a lashing from me ... di ! .... u wanan to act hiphop izzit !!! box u /:<

n finally get to see da ge ah tian and the rest other than liong ... miss him the most ... liong where are u ? whoopp .... then after that went to meet ah siang n ah hao .... n the lousy desert..... i hate it :<>


8pm ... class gathering at swesen ... got miss lindsey chia , jem , esther , angie , wendy , carol n kahmin , lina ... something great , carol n kahmin finally together and then esther is leaving us ... going to perth ... miss her smile n her happiness ....all the best to the bridge club haha ....

happy chinese new year ...?

my new year resolution ... work hard for studies okie !!!

lovereis ..

I wanna to be stronger ...

if there was a miracle done to me , i wouldn;t have been sicker than now for cny and now is cough+ flu + "fever" . reunion dinner was better , finally for once i ate with my mum n dad having steamboat at home ...early afternoon went out with adrian and just feel more feverish then before .... i got shudder ... coldness ... i dunno y ...and precisely .... i miss our gathering ... dunno when is the next one ?

took the bus 190 and the bus uncle thought i secondary school student , ask me throw in 55cents .... whoop ... din really expected that . i think must be the doing of my haircut ... look like a xiaomeimei .... wah liew ... sorry pals i had not been free to entertain ppl on msn , i am busy ...okie cny .... must find activities to do ....

day 1 : visit grandma and relatives
day 2 : visit aunty n karen + class gathering , still deciding
day 3 : rest or go out not confirm ....

confession ....

searching among the debris
gone are your prides
be it a thousand miles of distances
it hinders our thoughts
a folly on that spur of moments
brought back my heart...

oh thous shalt had it been here all along ?


lovereis .... never make a regret till u did

Happiness lies in our own hand ...

It had been a rewarding and fulfilling month ,knowing my goals i realised sometime , it just takes a little hard work and some thoughts to intricate our mindsets . I had been though two weeks of studies that taught me goals to be seek happiness , to be self-contented in what we are doing and most of all to lead our own life to a state of fulfilment .Nevertheless , On this route , we are all loners seeking our own companionships ... getting to know people , friendship . Probably , it is time I hope that we need to make the best decision out of the information we had on hand and realise we choose and decide what lies ahead . Happiness is crucial however time will prevail that what is unseen will be there :P

" Happiness lies in our hand , so what are we all waiting for ? "

Gambatte ... clarie !

lovereis

lamenting .....

I admit i am getting addicted to caffine ,just last night i toss n turn at 3am I am still staring in the air . it's wasn;t a good start to begin with , and i chatted with my special fren till 2am and he had to work tml .

Feel so gulity about the starbuck's , sorry lp , i just want a bit of indulgence ,:< .... but to think i realise i was chided by him ... haiz . my saturday was spolit , staying at home , staring into spaces and i had tried to organise the mountain full of references to be read ... + the textbooks i borrowed and everything which i felt i am trying . The raining had been most dampening , of all i felt rainy season always come at the wrong time . Someone told me marriage is a liability .... that set me thinking was marriage for fickleminded individuals like me ? I am starting to detest myself , I wonder why does life keep us struggling and no one understands . When had fate come and gone at a times like this ?

" why do someone say sorry when it is the last straw ?"

I realised I am disillusioned by myself , living a double-lives , imagine one minutes i am the reserved cool, attitude problem person and the next minutes I am carrying my mask smiling around saying "h" to stranger ? which is scary to me , the mirror reflect my split personalities ... i can't saw any happiness ... dun blame me , cos i see more clearly than before .

why do people keep worrying ? i lamented that it is because of responsibilities toward others , commitment or even attachment to human beings. I feel so gulity about the things i had done to other.....

First day at school ..?

morning , i finally stomped to the long awaited overhead bridge , the unfamilar lecture halls with no souls around ?

i guess i was rather early for once , i gathered my lecture materials and found a secluded spot , somewhere in the centre .

9.25am , students keep rushing in.. sounds of laughters filled up the room , gathered in grp .

My solitary remains ..... till i saw karen rushing in ---- she was'nt aware of the change in venue .

comfortably settled before Dr. John Man keep saying :" now is your break" .

She smiled at me , as if to break my solitary ... reaching out my hand i say " hi " .

We roam around before we found the girls in front giggling , breaking the ice ... i know Su and Sherrin , from tp.

Surprised i got a tiny apple strudel for my refreshment with hot pipping milk tea , feels rather good and settled finally but i realised all our specialisations is differ .

went back for the other half of the lecture before i start rushing my note-taking , wearing my little pink frame spectacle , so nerdy !!! omg .

finally someone broke the silence and then i realised sch end ... i bidded goodbye to my new frens and meet joyce for lunch as they all had their activties . sms lilian till i remember she is also in my course but differ batch ..... haiz .... lilian , i kind of miss someone familar sitting near me .

Doughnut keep smsing me the whole day ... tml will be seeing her in sch ... finally a clinque though we are in differ courses ... at least she stayed a few blocks away from me , so glad ...:>

Rained heavily that i was rather drenched , i think my mary jane spolit cos i almost slipped not once but twice . Went to roam ngee ann , my old skool , kind of miss co-op , miss my fav ... liang to fu and kavana chicken rice in canteen 1 . Went library to look up reference text ... and found 2 ... probably need to get joyce to borrow for me :>


This was my first day of sch

i realised it is time to study hard ...

schedule


gambatte , oop i still tell my classmates " hi i am clara " :>smile

lovereis ....

Gambatte !!!

hopefully lp will recover from her feverish status n back to work ...

she is a dear good fren to me , somehow i just feared she may " collapse" due to work stress

really condemm her boss .... can;t u let her leave ?

hmm , i was staying home , thinking , reading some notes , napping and msn with frens .

intend to ask adri help me buy lappy in sch ... haha .

maybe , joyce called me to tell me that i can sell laptop to ngeeann but subject to the conditions .

i am happy for the first time ,i finally made a decision ...though the song " tian hui " by SHE gimme a courage , it is not depressing but make u stronger ... do u know that :>

oke time to sleep tata , my reader ...and including freestyle , i probably feel sometime it's good to let go :P

lovereis ... loving very seconds :P

i had a great time

more candid shots :P

the peppermint still taste better haha
candid shot of adri solo .... haha ... dun kill me
fullerton view from our sight .... nice wedding over there ?
hey peepz , time to get my life back , yes my studies is back on track , trying to adjust my time clock ... schooling and i need to get a job . I spent my new year day 1 going to lawerence's house warming & ask adrain to accompany me :> ., thank u buddy :> and to think i am very late to make them wait for me (gulity) , it was pretty spacious n his cody was really cute , saw victor n rog in causal ...for the lst time

Then 8pm , went to cityhall with adrian to try out the latest peppermint mocha and he ordered his hot cocoa but seem like my drink was nicer ... he actually "snatched" mine , hey fren choose a better taste next time okie :P

Later he suggested to relax , we went to the Esplanade and borrow his shoulder to lie hahaha ....nice , starless night again . i was darn happy that we finally can view the night scenary , beautiful fullerton :P . he keep telling me how "touching " was the movie king kong ... the romance in btw the female lead and king kong . Took some candid shots with adrian , quite fun ,happy new year:>