cest la vie

i will never forgedd the dayys we once had.

the days when yuu were everything tuu mee.

my mind used to tell mee datt we'd be together foreverr.

budd now i realize daat was all a big dream.

which makes myy hart shatters` into a milli0n pieces.

ii sometimes wonder if y0uu, still thhink of mee and lurvbbee mee

or if to do i'm jus a face in a crowd.

i wish so very much dat one daee we can have it all back.

but for now, i sit here silently rememberinn' all the memoriies we once shared.

hoping dat one day yuu will feel the same and put back the pieces of mii broken heart*.

yuur existence is wad makes mine.now.

if love is painful and tortures us so.. why do we love? why is it all we search for in lyyfe? thys pain, this agony? why is it all we long for? this torture,this powerrful death of self? maybe because its lurrve

ratio 1 girl : 6 guys outing :....

What a busy day! went to Maxphoto to collect the commission for PC show with desmond peh n ting guan ,chang yao then off to meet the rest . Jerlyn n andy last min din go eventually , busy with work so me the only girl left . Then went to lucky plaza to collect commission from APO and level 2 to find frankie for better deal on e earpiece , cos deneng n desmond want to get the white one . Later we meet kelvin , deneng , desmond tan for buffet . They got to esprit for shopping as ting guan fren got 50% discount , we dived into shopping mood . The guy went off shopping left me , deneng n kelvin who had already spent $200 over for a crumpler bag and trying to resist temptations .

Yo , then went to POSB to deposit the cheque and finally back to sakae for a heavy buffet at 4pm . Seriously we were all hungry n tired . So the sushi plates keep clearing when we start eating like hungry ghost festival . I think total up we order about 100 plates or so ............ drained our energy ....and kelvin n jiaming is the " da wei wang " . desmond tan n me keep eating the tamago , finally share common food with someone , passion for egg sushi haha ......oiishi . The funny thing is we keep calling the waitress for more plates of gyoza , fried tofu , temaki , chawamushi and so on ....... etc .... one is call maria , another is ying ling . Kelvin go n tease her ........... after ordering a list ... he say " give me tamago , tempura ..... n plus your tel no ............... " damm cheeky .... we just keep laughing ........

kelvin was really" bad " at esprit , he went to touch the maniquuinn model ...... " bust " , almost made us laugh like hell .................he got alot of dirty jokes ........ today i laugh like mad .........well after sakae, deneng n kelvin , desmond peh went to meet gf left me jiaming n desmond tan so we went mos to chat on r/ship stuff . I realised we all have a common perspectives on r/ship ...... they are all leo n attached for very long time like me .......... chat till 10 n home sweet home . :>

10-days roadshow - drained ..............

for the past 10 days , I had been working non-stop . I hardly rest , as a redemption girl for the new sony 10-days roadshow , it was a comfy job mainly to distribute free gift ..... but there is some kind of emotional torture which I dunno how to explain . Lucky plaza was a place that all type of happening will be there . For 10 days , I had met countless differ people and they way they treat you . Life is a reality , I realised that we had certain expectations of ppl but sometimes they just dun meet up to it . my colleagues are really nice guys , there are only a total of 2 girl , jerlyn and me . some nice things to talk about , We took turns to go mango sales early in the afternoon cos normally it is either me or her on duty . it was rather fun . At 8.30pm , I would drool on the famous crystal jade bo luo bao with pork ..... that is the time to take orders from those guy promoters and " tabao " for them . We are like welfare . Morning , it is all drinks and breakfast orders , and requests like sweets + green tea . today is the last day i bidd good bye to everyone ...

outing , relax ... relax

Sunday , went out with the rest , you see in lp's blog those descriptions but nevertheless , we did had an enjoyable time taking alot of neo print , only thing is Cafe cartel at Cineleisure is uncomparable to the one at plaza singapura . Din realise cos the waitress talk to me I also never heard her........ not sure how to rated the service .... just lousy ambience I would say .But neo prints taken at the heeren one was the best one I had an enjoyable experience taking our own sweet time with the neo prints and stuffs .ok , in the end , thank u ppl for accompanying me to the station nearer to my bus stop :>/

Today , tue , went out with 2 colleagues of mine , both at 22 yr old Trixie n Cheng wei , they look nicer in their skirt wor cos normally I see them in jean for work . Okie , I am the odd one out cos I wore a jean with my yellow tee from Zara .... just bought haha .... now got sale ma .... Trixie say I look nice in yellow . She look very OL to me , in a dress n white cardigan . I meet her first cos cheng wei sms me ,she just wake up ... woooo late liao , now taking cab . so off we went to have our lunch at MOS .... and we chat while waitng for cheng wei . trixie is really keen on Energy Ku da ,she told me about recently she went for their autograph session and other stuff . Then finally cheng wei come , in a halter n mini , also plus a cardigan .

We had a nice chat about sony gallery gossip .... oh ... my ... the very " likable "person " chee seng " was promoted to a supervisor. Hmm ... really very not surprised cos he is kind of apple polish as far as i know . Next went for KTV ...... and realised trixie's voice was really nice ... she win compeition before one .. pei fu pei fu . As for cheng wei she is a pianist ( keyboard ) in her band .... forgot the name .." d+++" cos after that she went for band rehearsal or something ... The ktv was nice , we chose all those chinese songs , jap one .... and chang wei will chose something really differ like ... mostly guy's song , english one , faye 's song . The service at kbox .... hmm .... ok loh .... we end at 4.30 pm but can still continue to sing haha .... After that went for a little shopping , din buy anything , cos I was saving $$ .... and so do they ... no choice ... in the end wei got herself a blusher at SASA .... and tata ....as for me , went around kinokuniya to see books / mag till 7 plus and went home lo ... dinner was nice . feel tired ,tml training for new product .... so going to HQ see my colleagues again :>

15th june - training at sony .... 10 am to 12pm
16th june - not sure
17th - 24th june - lucky plaza roadshow start at 8am .... for set up .

Does justice prevail ?

I was having a comfortable day before someone snap at me at 8.30 pm , I felt so lousy about that . I went to yuen's hosue to wash some clothes and then I watch Guess Guess Guess which he downloaded 4 espisodes for me . In btw , I was cleaning his doggie's place and dust all over the place , so plan to vaccum the his room but it dies of electricity . So i went outside to charge the mini vaccum and then I change the 3-pin plug from the iron plug to the vaccum one . it is already been switch off so I left the vaccum charging . 3pm I went to get the mini vaccum charge and change back the plug to the iron ( it had been on already from morning till now ) and I din know that iron need to switch off .... am i stupid or what , I seldom or rarely do ironing ..... it is not my bs lo y was i accused ... felt like strangling someone . Oke , night time I was home happily watching tv and oversea call from yuen in a ever digusting voice " my sis said u left the iron on " btw by the way I haven said she left the air con on all the way for your room . btw bed in mess ...... so what is the f*** about ! . I explain to him abt that plug i change and even till the swicth for iron had been on since i come his house . Great , he never buy my word and the line went dead even b4 I had finish my sentence . Feel so wrongly accused , for the lst time and comparing I was always in the wrong .... then btw is " princess " the correct one ?

felt wrongly accused , call his house to clarfiy. I am the type of person who dun like to beat abt the bush and I say i din do it ...and plus u left the aircon on lo for the all , no one will believe , next time i shall take photo of evidence , good idea .........ok enough of my frustration .

Recently had a problem with my salary , cos it is lower then expect , been calling up my agent to clarfiy and today I got the mystery uncover ...........my bishan manager pauline keep clippin my timesheet to her file and din submit till last week so I had to wait for 20th june for the next pay with more $$ .... hahaha may be a good thing , can help me save $$. Trixie call me , we talk on EnergZ /// she is so keen on kuda ..... whoops... we chat for 1 hour .... quite long sia ... tml going out with her n wei .

my brothers ......

happy " zhong yuen jie " or dumpling festival , mid-term ... well , went to autn 's house for dumpling , she is like a mum to me , had been taking care of me till 8 years old , so kind of love her . A lovely women with good cooking talent , she got a daughter and 4 sons, my bros and sister . Additionally today saw the my two god-bro philip phua and yi yan ... they been babysit by aunt during our times and we used to play together . Good really nice to see them , actually never seen them for 7 years or more , how to say I got two bro , philip is the youngest being 15 years old , cute and nice , used to be really guai and cute .... but more become so big piece liao , i remember going out for badminton and left him at the community centre then later i remember I almost lost him. Luckily along he was waiting for me . As for yi yan , he is younger then me by 2 years old ..... I often went to his house to play dough and toy everyday, just stay below aunt's house, so glad he actually was shocked to see me . he had grown to be a good-looking boy hahha and he is a great cook from year of training by aunt cos he like to see her cook . As for me , I used to be very bad-tempered keep running during meals and it took 3 hours for me to eat one bowl of rice ..... i remember i bite my aunt stomach till blood ooz .... bad ar me ..... the elder among them .

next went to meet my buddy for 10 years , weiwei haha , she is a lame joker , we had a chat at swensen , and we ordered latte but it doesn't taste nice . Then evening she suggested bringing me to a coffee shop that serve nice BBQ seafood . We had a full dinner and off we went home , she even sent me to the bus stop ..... okie , got a driving license , so we celebrate but too bad he mum scared she crash her new car and dun let her drive hohoho ....

Lazy days ..

Well , been staying at yuen's home for the past 2 days , just went there to play with gigi or clean up his room, feeling 'empty" but life still goes on . He called me 3 times today . I was on my way to watch this movie " my boyfriend is Type B " it was a funny comical show , as blood type b guy are known to be nasty to gf so most girl will avoid but the twist is the guy changed for the better ... okie , alone watching movie was not bad , no distraction actually quite enjoying it haha. currently I am waiting for my payslip + enjoying life, looking for another new job ba. what are my schedule for this week.

Friday - going to collect commission for the PC show from dealer and meet pc show north korean team haha

Sat- bring gigi for her grooming ( need to call up mona for appointment )
- dumpling festival or called " mid-authum " festival lunching with my god-bro philip and my extended family karen , my 4 kor kor and my fav auntie " love u :>

Sunday - home sweet home , or mum gonna to complain this or that.

next week ......

mon- free
tues- going out with trixie n cheng wei , my sony gallery good fren ....
wed..... start looking for job , interview .

Well I am looking for a job maybe more in the marketing or PR field . Life is great .
today call trixie and dated her out for shopping .... so long
not sure got a new from yuen , he said he got a job in hk , going to work for 3 momth as a advertising assistant but the pay is really great ..... whoop .... going to join him in sept ... my disneyland here i come:>

PC show - expo

Well peepz , I haven been communicating with anyone other then my colleague ... too busy with pc show cos it was a 1 hour and 15 mins ride home ...... Well again I am in charge of sony digital cameras so been a promoter there for the last 5 days . I saw alot of my old friends like jessie , meijing from acer , ying xing , tracie ... and etc ... so many of them working there . The whole 5 days , I faced alot of differ customers , fussy one , nice and cute looking guy and etc ... one of my customer a 20- plus ask for my hp no . my colleague alfred replied " you dare to get my gf's hp no in front of me ah" ( just to bluff him ) cos this customer too persisent . sianz ....I had worked with alot of ppl like twins janice n jenny , lester , desmond , alfred , ting guan, da clara ( my sis haha) , timonthy , chang yao , raine , pearly , tracy and etc ... I had been thinking alot ppl who come from differ places actually gather to work as a team . This time there is comission so Wewere all glad to work together to share it . I had calculated I sold about 30 plus over cam ...for the whole show but think my colleagues da clara sold 70 over , she is really power hahah ....... hmm for the time being today quite sad cos yuen left for hk . I just return from the airport ....... he will only be back on 7th july . I thought of giving him a surprise , probably go on lst july cos yuen's fren will be going on that day .... can take flight . life is really precious , looking for another job now .......anyone going graduation ?