sick

Been carrying a heavy cloud on my head this morning for work , I finally "shi sheng " le , thank to lawerence tare panda choco biscuit + the crackers by christine . I had been feeling shag , bones breaking ,that is the problem with flu ... never feel any worse then being sick . Been yearning for the meiji choco bar but was stopped by kevin , he keep saying " drink more water , no more choco " to me and evangel . sian ... nothing much to eat , lunchtime was rather blend , the wanton soup noodle seem tasteless to me . suddenly I missed my taste bug . Work was a bunch of blur ... making mistakes , I accidentally registered the employer with another particulars ... and other minor faults. Went to vomit in the toilet today .... i am feeling sicker , when i return , all the lots was smiling at me ... guess that they accidentally spilled all my tea ... gone .......thank to her . nvm , i dun feel like drinking it anyway. :p today I was on a cold war with her......I suddenly i realise that why are there such a selfish person .... ? okie , probably i was abit over lamenting over him but I just hope someone will listen .... to me and pls be tactful !!! .... was really angry about it .... or probably being too disappointed .... pinning hopes with no returns . Was supposely moody about this when dearie bri finally email to me . his first email , i can't imagine how many times i had read it over and over again . those words really means alot ........ love ya bri ! I just can't stop thinking about us .

The flu bug

Was on the way to work this morning when it started raining heavily suddenly . Then I tried calling the girls but to no avail , no one pick up their phones till I saw evangel and her fren in the same situation . I tried calling kevin and finally he came down with 2 umbrella , thank u kevin :> . Had been feeling unwell since today , the flu bug caught me . Tiredness drained all my strength , keep going to the ladies to wash up . I am too sick . Din manage to have lunch with peiwei even if it is the last day of her work at her DBS , I had heped her got a job at lp's company , so happy for her cos I think she would be more keen in an IT job rather then one slacking over at DBS. Afternoon , lunchtime was a heavy meal set with evangel and ernest , we got around chatting the conversation of which is better being someone who take charge in a r/ship rather then a submissive person ..... ernest chose being someone with a huge ego which is a rather expected ans from him . I was rather conversial on this topic . work today was rather hectic , then my sneezing started coming in ....... feeling abit tired . I realised I hd caught the flu bug from evangel , faint ************. :Lawerence manage to contribute to the pantry , buying one tin of tare panda cos he is such a glutton . omg .

Intend to travel home with Agnes but on the way keep thinking abt bri , still measuring , we had a time lapse of 7hours. Probably she is in not a so good mood , she ask me to stop all this of thoughts ......how can someone stop her thoughts ? for a moment , I am feeling fine . home , after dinner , i immediately fell asleep ... too tired till 12.40am , the flu bug come again ........ dun feel like going for work tml . Been waiting for his email ? where are you ? ..........

me on the train ... am shag ?

If time permits ............

If Time Permits ..... one day we will grew old together hand in hand

I wish I would never know a virgo guy like him

Emracing the seconds we holds on

touching every hearts of sincere

how had courage won me over ?

sharing the world together

yearning between the distances ,

how i missed you ......... bri

Awakening ..........

A moment of 20 years of my life had bypassed , unknown to anyone just that
I understand life greatest regret is to forget and to carry on . A grasp of flashbacks , a bulb blinking on myself , one day we will grew old and reminaise at that moment of folly . Just woke up from a dream that seem so real , a dream that will not be a reality from then . Remember the date 23th sept 2005 ,11.24pm goodbye to him. Surprising was able to hold back tears , probably a few droplets warm my face . Be a brave girl ! .

First movie date !

Been anticipating today date... with bri . A movie date that was not arranged .... hohoho ... he had been so busy to have time for me , just give me some more time plss . Actually intended to go bugis for movie after work , but somehow , the timeslot din fit our need , so off we went to the other cinema nearby but it doesn't have the movie title " The Longest Yard" was a great movie , loves it , hilarious adam sandler! . It was our first movie date at Suntec City and I treat him to SUBWAYS , he seem angry when he is hungry ...." there was a saying a hungry man is an angry man ........ " , finally filled his stomach while we smuggled the burger to the cinema . For the first time , he held my hand ...... felt so happy ... so comfortable ..love it . Is that a sense of security ? Rest on his shoulder .........almost fell asleep but the movie keeps me away throughout , somehow there is a hidden meaning " courage " from the movie . Something really nice .........:P Next . he send me home the 2nd time , thank dearie ! .... I had a nice chat with him on the bus ...... love bri !!! .ganbatte to my love ! Just told him about what my ex did to me recently , been trying to pour out my thoughts , finally did ...... felt so relieved ........ dear bri , love ya !

Treasure our days . ....

Another day passed, counting days by days,bri is going to leave very soon , sooner or ... probably he won't even give me a chance to send him a farewell . Not really depressed , but I calculated for the next 24 months +++ , I will miss him . At this moment of time , I am glad I am able to see him every day, so glad time had allowed me . Was chatting with him last night , so happy but he actually missed his dinner time , was abit gulity about this . Send an early SMS to him ... not much time left , just treasure it gal! Had a hectic day , just received an sms from siang saying his back got problems while in ns , so went on to call him how was he . luckily he was attended by paramedic .... glad my fren was okie :> Thank you gal lp for worrying over me , finally i did called ( u know:P) . Was abit restless for the whole day , din managed to laugh at any jokes or craps , too tired , guess , I shouldn't be too immersed in my densha otoko . Lunch time was great ...... gathering of 4D's family ..... I will miss this family . Tml ... movie with him , so anticipating ...... love u bri :>

Happy brithday huiPing :P

Was wondering the street yesterday afternoon , with an attempt to shop alone . It wasn't any good attempt , will be meeting catherine and lp 6pm at the Tampines Mall , how rare 3 of us managed to get-together . But Huifen was sick so she din come . I had been sorting out my thoughts about what lp said on the phone last night , suddenly felt she was quite true . Catherine was on time , so we had some bites ...crisy chicken XXL + waffles , it was quite delicious . lp join us later and then we went to shop for huiping 's birthday gift . It was a unique pink exisquite type , will probably fit her taste , hope she like it .:p Next went for her birthday chalet , there were already too many people to mangle so we stay as a group of 3 initially . Huiping keep bringing food over from the bbq pit , her bf di was really good at the cooking , very impressive , she is a busy host throughout the night , we hardly speak . 8 plus , roman came and continue to "suan" lp on the " drain " matter but she end up laughing like mad . Surprising , I was having my jelly when Siang called me up , only managed to have a chat with him then pass my phone around ... seem like he is calling up to pour his "troubles" hor ! . hopefully he will be coming out soon , we will be able to meet again . something unfortunate happen , about SQ... but I really felt very sad . Sort of miss xiao hei , guang , sq, siang , hao bunch , i just remember seeing last month and now they are all in ns liao . The food esp doryfish was delicious with the combination of lemon jucie i supposed + my fav mango cake hahaha ...loves it :P ... roman keep us entertained throughout the night . It was really fun while cutting the cake , all of ping's fren ask di to kiss her .... blissful sia .... we do join in the fun . We were really tired and shag at the end when we were leaving. Miss them all :> on the way , we took alot of picture with roman's phone , haha , he must be real shocked when he get home . Cat told us about Dax's ungentlemen behavior , guess he is such a "sick" person and even tried to take advanatge of my jie mei ! at some point of my life , I missed this type of gathering , I am starting to live my life to the fullest . home then just received an e-mail , was abit shocked , but i feel nothing reading about it . How people do changed....we never knows.

Dating ....feel great !

Had a great outing with bri , kind of happy but I can't seem to describe what sort of happiness ... it is . Accompany him to panasonic centre to have his mp3 repair around redhill area . yup , he went for his regular round of soccar betting . Suddenly enjoy the feeling of being with him although we dun know what to chat about but alot of things just goes on ..... My first time to IKEA .... really impressive it was so big ! He need a table lamp but seem to take any liking on it , probably he will come again . Went to have a bite on the delicious hotdog which I felt was " oiishi " with the sauce . suddenly feel like ... if time permit , I would like to fall in love with him for once . He got a picture frame in blue . probably just joking that he will put my picture in it , but that was really sweet ..... I hope to know him more . Feel like holding his hand ........ but somehow we can't .......... I understand . went to holland village for dinner ...some finger food + drinks . Feeling drained , we had a nice conversation . somehow I knew when independent is coming , I need to be one brave gal I felt . If true love exist , that only happens once . commitment phobia is one of the biggest regret in life. I realised I am getting rational days by days . Hopes is something I wish to convince . Ganbatte . Never been happier . :>

hopelessly immeresed

Had a long sleep since last night I was home since 7.30pm . 4pm , I woke up , thinking about to surprise him .... to go n accompany him to work . The ride was rather smooth , not much of traffic but on the way my heart was thumping ..... with surprise i hope to see for . 6.50am give him an early morning call , supposely he will be shocked I was at simei station . Yes , what a hopelessly fool I was but the wait was worthwhile . So glad to see him but he give me something which I had never received before . keep it nicely :> Was rather early to work and begin the hectic life process . Again tiredness overwhelm me .... I keep thinking .... I wish I want to treasure time . bri ... miss ya . Passion do die but love never . ........ Joyce called me up just now , supposely thought I will be angry at her . But our misunderstanding was cleared , what a lucky gal she was , she was with ZS and now his family finally accept her ... great ...

touched ......

I had a dream last night , was super duper late for work , i am the last one who report for work. a hectic day to begin with and incorporated with my concoct of breakfast and hot tea , that had made my day . My coolness begin till then even now . I can't fathom the reality of truthfulness or fairytale . Time and tide wait for no man . Lunch time was all quiet and sian ..... but after work decided to went kinokuniya to get my fav mag with kyoko covergirl and he accompany me to go . Thereafter, we suggest going for mango dessert at she xiu shan . The real confession was there , i felt i am in love .... had a nice little chat . Was even touched when he bought me home when he stay at simei .... so farrrrrrrrrrr............ away. thanks .:> bri .... love :>

love hate

was a bit unforcused throughout the day, but din managed to do anything to it . feel like strangling someone ...... what happen to clara . my coolness had concede to the matter of time defeat , only then i realised i am pinning no hope . give up , give up ......gameover ........

Guilt ................+++++++

A pang of guilt hidden within me , I felt heart thumping , curiosity about exploring the silence between the corridors . I swear by words , it feel so real , silent and somehow I never knew it since then . Was it a bad omen or by sheer good luck the tarot cards had promised me the wheel of fortune ? I plead my angel for forgive, but the courage hidden within me is losing time . where had time goes by before I knew I am falling deeper and deeper into the crimson walls with my bare hand gripping on every possibilities that could drag me down and deep . scream pierced through the malicous holes .................. had someone hear a salvage angel fallen . goodbye to my confession

Tired ...... shag .........

I had a lovely morning boarding the train to work , sheer good luck get to sit all the way from dover to work :> .... was late for work by 10 mins due to the heavy downpour and my LRt was stopped like forever ...... Work had been getting hectic days by days ........ somehow din really manage to get a breather till luckily the server was down and we had to go for early lunch ...............whooop ... can rest finally . Went to Burger king for lunch today decided to settle for turkey sandwich meals with the rest , 6 of us finally got the chance to have lunch at the same time . So glad ...... victor was real funny , telling us that his fav music ......is zhen ni , fei yu qing ..... almost faint from hearing that ....omg . Had been out of loves for sometimes ...feel empty at times , went to library just now and happen to get this book written by tony parson , such a great writer .

Happy Virgo B Day Brian

I meet a person who is still a mystery to me . A true virgo guy who was under the diguise of a capicorn . Have this guy been hurt too much to admit being a virgo was shouldered with being sensible , hardworking and a sense of responsibility . I dare not fathom this is a reality but feel eveyone had his own little secret . happy birthday brian...... wish you success >>>>> where is my dream guy ?