Freaking out...

Life is freaking out instantly for me for the past week . The mundane work life had immune me with the world more incredible sleeping pills or a sense of loss . I realised alot of time , we had done many thing in a moment of folly . I felt a lost of control over routine , over fun , over a failed relationship . I felt foolish yearning for that" special someone" to be a knight riding galiantly to save me . When I embraced my friends , they are my pillars of support , reliable bunch of oldies that brought me back to reality . Starting all over again is difficult but however I aspire to be my old self again . where am I?