Realisation

".We are though ... finally got this over and happier..."

I met him ... yesterday , was happier when i meet him cos we were like old friends , not that I can be myself when i am with "him" and no matter what I know he will be there for me . Still , I wish him happiness in his newfound love . Infact , so much had happened between till I still trust his advice , he is right after all and i realise i feel like helping him / encouraging him . I feel my heart and asked : " Yes i am happier without "him" . He said " U changed , did i ?" infact when i met him , I was in my sunday best ... my classmate keep asking me who are u meeting ...

Yes , I am not confused , as if i been splashed some cold water by " Him " , grew sober and i guess " once bitter , twice shy " , he said i grown prettier like a fair lady ? ... was it a good compliment ? Not sure if valentine day should i spend with who? ... some friendly invitations .... here n there ...will it be misleading if it is just a dinner ? Probably I decided to spend this day with a pal ....or

wish that on valentine day , I would received" forget-me-not" . He said ..... i only like complimentary flora ... YEs ,

Clara simply love "forget-me-not" .... I only remember validy he always sent me white roses , blue roses , Sunflower .... and when he Tried to patch up .... he keep sending me flowers every day till i thrown it away in front of Him .

That's me , so devoid of feeling .... so heartless ... so cold .... again .
Yesterday i apologise ... did i ? sincerely in my heart .... I knoe He cares instead i told Him " Thank ya " .for nothing and thanks to "Him" , i gradually accept reality .